A letter to a busy mum

Dear mum,

Please mum, stop a minute for me.

Dad says you’re busy. He says you work hard until late at night when I’m asleep. He says there’s lots to do around the house and you’re trying to look after us children as well. Dad says I can’t come and see you because you’re working. I don’t know what that means, so I sneak up to your office.

I try to talk to you, ask you to read me a story or take me to the park. We could go for a bike ride or run around the fields. We could play hide and seek or do a jigsaw puzzle. I’d like to show you how I can write a new letter, or count so high  you won’t believe it. But you say you’re busy, you say you’re working. But I don’t know what that means.

I wish I could tell you mum, all the wonderful things I’ve done this week while other people were looking after me. At nursery, I’ve made a friend. I had pasta for my tea and when I was in the playground, I fell over and bumped my knee. But it was okay, because the grown ups at nursery have time to stop for a minute and rub it better.

I try to tell you but you’re not listening, you just keep pressing the buttons on your computer. I pull on your shirt and try to climb onto your lap but you tell me to get down. You say you’re busy, you say you’ll play with me later. Or tomorrow, or next week. But not now. And I need to talk to you now.

I need to tell you that next year, things will be different. I have to go to school you see. Dad says that I will make lots of friends there but I don’t know which school I’m going to and I don’t know who my friends will be. I’m worried and I need to tell you but you’re not listening to me.

I want to say that I’m ready to go to school, I want to learn to read and write, I want to meet all of my lovely new friends. But I’m worried mum, what if people aren’t nice to me? What if school is hard and I am tired? I still need a nap some days, how will I manage?

But most of all mum, I need to tell you that you will miss me when I’m at school. You will look back on these days and wish you hadn’t worked so much. You will wish that you had let me sit on your lap, wrap my arms around you and cover you in kisses.

Mum, I know you will wish that you had listened to all the things I had to say. I know you’ll be lonely sitting there at your computer when I’m not here. If only I could find a way to tell you mum, perhaps you’d stop a minute. You could push me on the swing or watch me climb a tree.

I won’t be this small for long mum, I won’t always need you, I’ll grow up to be strong like you. Tomorrow, I will move mountains. But just now mum, I need you. Please mum, stop a minute for me.

Letter to a busy mum. Tomorrow, I will move mountains.

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9 Comments

  1. February 1, 2016 / 6:39 am

    Oh this struck a chord with me! I feel guilty all the time as if I’m ‘wasting’ our precious time. And now my biggest is in school, she’s in this other world & I miss her. The guilt at being busy is intensified with small boy because I know soon I will loose him too. And then I shall have all the time in the world to do this stuff. Trouble is, I need to do it now. If I had a job somewhere else I think I’d feel less guilty but working from home makes me feel doubly bad for some reason. Great post.
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  2. Izzie Anderton
    February 2, 2016 / 2:01 pm

    It’s one of my biggest regrets that I worked so many hours when my daughters were small. I know that I missed out and if I had my time over again I’m not sure I’d do the same. We used to try to keep one day a week free to spend time together as a family and luckily, it’s mostly these days that my daughters remember. I hope that life becomes less chaotic for you as your husband recovers and you can spend more time with both of your gorgeous girls x
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    • monsterid February 3, 2016 / 2:38 pm

      You’re so right, it is definitely the good times that they remember. I do hope I don’t look back on this time with regret in years to come.x

  3. Ninjakillercat
    February 5, 2016 / 4:44 pm

    OOOH this is the mummy minute ~ now now my son is 17 it goes so fast the time xxx

    Focus on the good xx
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    • monsterid February 5, 2016 / 6:04 pm

      Thank you Claire, I’m sure you are right, the girls are going to be all grown up before I know it.xx

  4. Agent Spitback
    February 5, 2016 / 11:03 pm

    Oh what a beautiful letter! A lovely reminder to be with out children now. You can get caught up with what you have to do and forget what’s truly precious.

  5. May 25, 2016 / 10:09 pm

    I want to say so much but I can’t see the screen properly right now. This just killed me. Proper tears. I just don’t know what else to say. xxx

  6. June 15, 2016 / 11:37 am

    Aaah, tissues at the ready! This did give me a bit of a lump in my throat! Because it is all so true and the way you have written it is so simple and innocent, rather than as a whinge and a whine. It makes it really hit home. Mine are now 12, 14, 15 and 16 and they still want my time – maybe even more now. This made me stop and think, thank you. Alison

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