I’m sorry that the last couple of weeks have been tough. I wish I could promise it was going to get better soon, but I’m not so sure.
The thing is, sometimes us humans get things wrong. We take on more than we can cope with and then when something goes wrong, we end up in a bit of a difficult position.
And that’s what happened to us.
First of all, you came into season so I couldn’t let you run around with other dogs. I still don’t want to risk doing that until you’ve been neutered so you’re restricted to lead walking.
And then the cat disappeared. Sadly she was hit by a car. We were all devastated but you didn’t understand where she’d gone and I know you were worried.
And the next one to disappear was hubby, over a week ago now.
You kept smelling the clothes I’d brought home from the accident, I know there was blood on them and it upset you, a lot.
You would sniff the bags and run around the house looking for him and crying, but he’s still not back.
We go and see him every day, I think you probably know we’ve been with him, they say dogs can pick up most things due to their sense of smell.
I threw the clothes away today, but it doesn’t mean that he’s not coming back, he is. We’re just not sure when.
But throughout it all, you’ve still been going out for walks every day. That is until yesterday. I had so much to do and I just ran out of time.
Today, we’ve been out for most of the day again. Now it’s almost dinner time and you still haven’t been out.
And I wanted to tell you that I’m sorry.
I’m sorry that you’ve been confused, upset and bored. I’m sorry that I’ve told you off when you’ve been a bit too boisterous after a day of doing nothing.
I’m sorry that you’re not getting the level of exercise you were getting used to – you and I were starting to train for a half marathon together and you were enjoying it such a lot.
But most of all I wanted to let you know that you’re safe here, and you’re staying.
So many dogs – especially staffies like you – get to your age and find themselves being abandoned. Just like you were as a little puppy all those months ago.
Because things do change, people change, circumstances change. And people want cute little puppies. And let’s face it, you’re not that little anymore are you?
You still sit on my lap but if I’m honest it’s a bit like cuddling a small elephant.
That’s okay with us though, we knew the commitment we were making. You’re here for the rest of your days.
It won’t always be fun, there will be sad times as you’ve come to realise. But you’re a part of the family now, we wouldn’t be without you.
According to a recent survey by the Dog’s Trust, more than 47,000 owners abandoned their dogs last year. Of those, well over 5000 were put to sleep, that’s one every two hours for an entire year.
And those are just the ones that were placed into local council pounds, still more will have been surrendered directly to charities.
Bubbles, although things are a little tough here at the moment, you really are one of the lucky ones.