When I am old

Every day when I walk the dogs, I check to see whether my friend is looking as I pass her house.

I don’t know her name, but I know that she’s in her 90’s and she’s lived on this estate a long time.

If I can see her when I’m passing, I always wave and if she’s outside we always stop for a chat.

Some days, she’s watching the world go by from her window.

On other days, I don’t catch her eye because she is sitting at her desk, writing.

The world seems to move a little more slowly as I pass her house. She seems to live in the moment, happy to pass the time without the inconvenience and stress of modern technology getting in her way.

I wonder what I will do when I reach the age of ninety. I suppose that for my generation, it won’t be so unusual to live to such a ripe old age.

Will I still have the opportunity to sit and write or look out of my window at a beautiful view?

Will the letter be a thing of the past? I suppose that eventually we won’t even send parcels. It will be much more convenient if we all own a 3D printer.

When I’m 90, perhaps for my sister’s birthday (she’ll only be 80, no age at all) I’ll order her gift online. Whatever online means by then.

Maybe she will receive an alert to the electronic device of the moment to let her know that I have a gift for her.

Perhaps she will press a single button to print out the gorgeous bouquet of fresh flowers I’ve sent.

I hope I will still be able to exercise when I’m old. I suppose they will have invented a way to do that without actually moving by then.

I don’t imagine I’ll be able to go on holiday. After all, tourism is only a worthwhile trade whilst an area is worth seeing.

When I’m 90, there will be no rainforest. The arctic and the antarctic will no longer take the same form.

I don’t suppose there will be orangutans, tigers or rhinos unless they have recreated them in test tubes to live in zoos. It would have to be one hell of a test tube for that rhino.

So what will I do?  Will my eyes allow me to go on typing on a screen for all those years to come?

If I want to write a letter, will I even be able to buy a pen and paper?

I wonder what I will eat. My granddad has a fabulous service provided by a local company who bring him a hot lunch every day and charge just a couple of pounds.

I suppose when I’m old, things like that will be widely available. It is an aging population after all.

When I’m ninety, I hope to still be in regular contact with my daughters, my sisters and my brother. If at all possible I will live near to at least some of them.

I hope that watching the world go by won’t be a depressing pastime when I am old.

I hope there will be beauty beyond my window.

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  1. Izzie Anderton
    August 28, 2015 / 3:25 pm

    I love your bittersweet observations on life when you’re ninety years of age. Naturally, I’m a lot nearer that age than you, but I hope that we’ll both still be writing just as long as we can see the screens on our laptops x

    • monsterid August 29, 2015 / 3:03 pm

      Thank you Izzie. Haha I don’t think you’re that much closer to ninety than me 😉 I also hope that we’ll both still be writing. Fingers crossed!x

  2. Ninja cat
    August 29, 2015 / 7:33 am

    I wonder this to ~ I love the world around me x

  3. August 29, 2015 / 2:38 pm

    I love your writing, I wonder about these things too, wondering if I have grandchildren who ask about species that used to be here but aren’t anymore… We were at the zoo last week and listening to their talks can be so heart wrenching, but they’re doing fab conservation work now and have funded motion sensored cameras and teams to help catch and prosecute poachers. I hope that the media & age of instant information means more people become aware and realise the repercussions.

    • monsterid August 29, 2015 / 3:03 pm

      I agree, there is a part of me that harbours the vain hope that the human race will come good in the end with all the new tech and use it for good but it’s usually a fleeting hope, sadly I’m not sure it will really happen.x

      • August 29, 2015 / 8:41 pm

        With the recent Cecil backlash I hope it gives Westerners food for thought, shooting lions is an expensive business so chances are those who can afford to do it also have the most to lose – like dental patients!

        I feel like the world is starting to put pressure on these kind of things. And I hope I’m not being overly optimistic.

        • monsterid August 30, 2015 / 1:46 pm

          I hope so too. I agree that the world is starting to put pressure on but it’s not nearly enough. I hope it will be enough before it becomes too late.x

  4. August 30, 2015 / 7:39 pm

    Very thoughtful post. I’d be a rubbish futurologist because I pretty much never think far ahead. Love is too entwined with the fear of loss and I think if I let my thoughts run ahead I will become incapacitated by fear. We are pumped full of negative media stories because fear drives consumerism, public apathy and voting for authoritarian politics. When you dig deeper, we have many good news stories that we should use to drive our positivity and our belief that our actions can make a difference. We can reclaim our future as something that may be unimaginable, but not necessarily bereft of all we hold dear

    • monsterid August 30, 2015 / 9:10 pm

      I do agree that there are many good news stories, but I don’t think that we are doing enough as consumers. I hope we wake up before it’s too late.x

  5. August 31, 2015 / 6:03 pm

    Firstly, I love that you look out for her when you go past. I have some that I do this with. It’s always lovely to chat to them.

    Secondly, 90, hmm…..I don’t know. The world would have changed. But how is so intriguing. Would we advance in technology? Or would there be a reversion back to simpler times through global realisation?

    I’d like to think though that medicine would advance lots though especially when we consider the advancements that it’s made in that time span. So I would hope that we would all be old and happy and hopefully more ‘with it’ to enjoy the small things like family and friends.

    • monsterid September 11, 2015 / 6:25 pm

      That’s an interesting point about global realisation making us take a step back. I hope that happens.

  6. aNoviceMum
    September 15, 2015 / 3:41 am

    Exercing without moving, 3D printing of gifts, no more rain forest … o my, I hope not! The world will be a different place in the years ahead, but I don’t think it will be so different that snail post wouldn’t exist anymore; I hope not anyway. 🙂 #CommentLuv

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